Rough Day...

So today did not go really as I thought it would. I was planning to head down to San Diego early this afternoon with my dog Olive to finally tell my parents about her. I talked to my sister before I left for San Diego, and she told me that she thought it would be in my best interest if I told them about her before I just brought her down and showed her to them. So, I decided to go with what she said, and she told me dad and told me to call my mom. I told her that I wanted to wait and hear my dad's reaction to it all before I told my mom, because usually my dad is much more calm and lets things go easier. Well, he called me once he found out, and said all the normal stuff I expected him to say, i.e. "this is the stupidest thing you have ever done. You do not have the money to support a dog. You are being very irresponsible, you could have been saving that money, etc." Obviously I know all of that is true, but I am not one to be rational about things sometimes, so I got a dog knowing all of this. He then told me that he was going to call my mom and tell her because he knew she was going to be very mad, and wanted to be the one to let her know basically to help me out. Well, I get a call from my sister like 5 minutes later telling me that my mom has never been more furious in her entire life, and that I cant come home anymore. Turns out my mom is so upset that she wants me to give away my dog. She is livid. I know that I will not, and cannot give my dog away, so that is out of the question. I am just praying that she will calm down, and realize that though I did make a "stupid decision," it is just a dog, it's not the end of the world. I am just bummed because I was so excited to go down to San Diego and spend time with my family and introduce my dog to them, and now I may be getting cut off. I should have seen all of this coming, and in a way I did, but I guess I did not want to believe that my mom would act the way she did. Anyway, that is pretty much where I am at right now. If anyone has any suggestions on how to mend this problem, please let me know! Thanks! 

Being comfortable.

So I am at this point of my life where I am starting to get antsy. I know what I want to do with my life, and am trying to figure out how to make it all happen. So I just finished up A New Brain this last Sunday, and am now "showless." As of right now, I am working at Islands as a server about 5 days a week and that is pretty much it. Lots of my friends have left for other places already, and I feel pretty stuck. I still don't have a planned out living situation yet for New York, so until I do I am not 100% sure when I am moving. I am trying to push all of my friends who were not already planning on moving out there, to move. I am a bit of a scardy cat, so I think that if I get the people I love to go with me, the whole moving process wont be as scary. Also, I am really ready to meet new people and do new things. Certain elements in my life have gotten very comfortable, and I am ready for a change. I've kinda decided that being comfortable is lethal. I love being happy, but there is a very big difference between being happy and comfortable. I think being comfortable means that you are not taking any risks, and you are living life without trying anything new. I dont want to be that person. I want to be the person that goes out in the world and experiences life and accomplishes everything my heart desires. And what does me heart desire....I am not 100% sure yet, but I am excited to find out. I know I want to be an actress. I know that I love singing and acting more than doing anything else in the whole world. I know that I want to make a career out of it because no other job will make me happy, and we only live once, so I want to be happy. I also dont mind serving. I think it is hard work for good money, and I like working hard. I would be okay if I had to be a server for the next 10 years while I tried to make it in musical theater. I feel like that would be okay. It wouldn't be a desk job, and it would not feel permanent, so I think I would enjoy it. Leaving this comfortable life is also hard because it is also leaving some of the people you are so comfortable with. I am so used to the fact that I could drive for an hour and fifteen minutes and be at my parents house. I've never had to fly to see them before. I think that is what scares me the most. Family is so important, and I cant imagine not being there for my family. But I also know that my family wants me to follow my dreams, so I will not let them down. There will be many other people missed when I leave for NY as well. But I think the people who really care about me understand 100% that it is what I need to do. Anyway, I dont really know what this blog is about other then just getting some thoughts out. There are so many things I want to say but dont know how or why. Hopefully I will figure it out. So enough of this emo post!

I've got to go to work today at 12:00 and then I am meeting Geoff and his parents and my Dad and his work friend at the Brea Yard House for dinner. My Dad is up here on business so I am really glad that I get to see him! Part of me wants to tell him SOOOO bad that I have a dog just to get it over with. I feel like he would freak out way less than my Mom, but I also dont think the Yard House with Geoff and his family is the most appropriate time to tell him. Part of me just wants to go down to San Diego this weekend and bring my dog and just deal with the wrath of them finding out about her. It's going to be tough...they are not going to be happy! Okay, enough of that! I am going to relax before work. Till the next post :)

My fist blog ever!

Hey guys,

So I've decided to make this blog because I've realized that I am no longer in college, and wont be seeing everyone the way I used to, and I want to share my life with people. I know that I will be talking to most of my best friends via phone and everthing, but I thought this was a fun way to let everyone know what is going on in my life! So, this blog is basically going to be about the adventures of me and the starting of my career in musical theater. For those of you who don't know, I graduated about a month ago from Cal State Fullerton with my BFA in Musical Theater with 9 of the greatest people I have ever known. At Cal State Fullerton, they make you go through a jury process where you have to audition to get into the program. As a frosh, there are probably around 100-130 people who want to be in musical theater. During your soph. year, the numbers start going down for one reason or another. Some people just decide that musical theater just isn't what they want to do with their life. Other crazy people, like me, choose the crazy life of a musical theater major and start auditioning for the program. At the beginning of your soph. year, there is a small cut, but most people are kept for the first semester who decide to "jury." Then, at the end of that semester, there is a singing and acting jury that cuts the prospective musical theater majors to less than half. Our second semester there were about 24 or so people in the class. Then, at the end of your soph. year, you have a singing jury where you have to prepare 4 songs, an acting jury where you have to prepare a scene, and a dance jury which consists of ballet, tap and jazz. At the end of all that, they pick 10-12 people to make up the BFA class, which will continue on through Senior year. I was so lucky to have been picked as one of those people, and even more lucky to have been picked with the incredible people I was picked with. In my class, there were 7 guys and 5 girls that made up our class. I am so lucky to get to say that those were my best friends. So anyway, that program has been my life for the past 2 years, and now I am a graduate, and pretty much starting all over again! It is crazy to be so consumed with something, and then one day just be finished. I am so lucky to have had the incredible training and support that I had from my friends and faculty. Now, a new chapter is starting, and that is where this blog comes in! If I can be any good at this, I will be updating quite often about the happenings in my life. 

Now, as for what's going on in my life right now! I will be finishing up a 6 week run of "A New Brain" at The Rude Guerilla theater in Santa Ana this weekend. It has been a wonderful run, and I have truly enjoyed it. The cast has been amazing, and I have been so blessed to work with so many of my best friends again. There have sure been some rough moments, and times that we all wanted to just peace out, but in the end, it has all been worth it and wonderful. So...next on my plate: I am not sure! I have been trying to audition as much as I can lately, but this time of year is pretty slow because all of the summer shows have pretty much been cast. I have a few things I am going to audition for coming up, so we will see how all of that goes.

In other news, I have decided to move to NY sooner than I had originally thought. I was out in NY last week for a short trip with my sister for a call back I had, and realized that that is really the place I need to be. I cant keep asking my parents, or working my butt off to make enough money for plane tickets to go back and fourth to NY for every audition or call back or whatever I need to go for. It is going to be really hard to leave my family and of course Geoff (my boyfriend of 2 years in case someone is reading this who does not know), but I've talked to both and they all want me to do what I need to do. My Dad is a huge advocate for me going out there, and their support is incredible. I thought my Mom would be a lot more upset than she was when I brought it up, but she understands more than I ever thought she would. I have such an amazing family. Also, when I talked to Geoff about it, he told me that NY is where I need to be, and will support me 100%. So, I am not sure exactly when and where and who I am moving with, but it is going to happen sometime sooner than later. I am thinking Sept-Nov of this year...we shall see. I will keep everyone posted! So anyway, this blog has been painfully long! I will write when I have something new to write about! Thanks for reading everyone :)